It has been so long...

It has been so long

It has been so long since you felt the warmth in your own heart

That you have forgotten your sensitivity

Your humanity

It has been so long

That now you believe that you are a bitch

You behave like it

You don’t allow anyone to get too close to you

Even if you are pretending to be politely nice

It’s just a superficial mask

You have a very thick and tall wall built around you

So thick that you cant even feel your own heart anymore

You haven’t allowed yourself to cry or feel any sympathy for any other living thing for so long

Since your innocence and heart were broken by those you loved and trusted the most

When you were only a little girl

Little by little you started to freeze your tears

Little by little your feelings began to stay trapped in your throat

Without anywhere to go

Staying trapped inside becoming ice

Little by little in time the ice began to cover your heart

And the warmth was becoming history

Was becoming a faraway memory

In time as you body started to transform into a grown woman

You were already believing in the emotionless

Detached, cold, distant and unempathetic person you were becoming

Believing that that was you, identifying with that persona

The persona that seemed to keep you safe

The one that has protected you from ever getting hurt again

-            Ice Queen

-E.Y.P

@evyy.parkinson